Wednesday 14th July 2021
Blog No.136
Good evening sweetie (or good morning or afternoon depending on when you are reading this post),
Wow does time fly when you’re having fun or not…
It has been a while since we have last spoken on here. As they say never enough hours in the day.
My 2nd website (Lucys Fetish Closet) has taken up so much time and it is has taught me a lot. I know many that have released websites for new business ventures have made and launched their websites quicker.
I have been learning from scratch and building and doing everything myself. Yes, there have been friends that have been willing to help me but I think if I teach myself (as there are many successful entrepreneurs that are self-taught in many things) if something goes wrong then I will know where it went wrong.
In online business, we all have to learn how to trust people and businesses. I say this because even working on my own I still have put my website in the hands of hosting companies. They are the ones that can only deal with that side.
As a mistress, I am used to being in control of everything that I have within my business. So the trust issues that I have always had have taught me a few lessons, uncomfortable lessons but I have got through them eventually.
The launch of the website is near. It is due to be released on 1st August, fingers crossed. I have to give myself a deadline to work towards otherwise I could spend forever perfecting it.
The subscription section has to come later so I can spend time on that and build it will confidence. Trying to do everything at once is becoming impossible. So things have to be done in sections to be able to complete them to a particular standard, my standard.
So apart from the website I have been self-isolating and keeping myself healthy and away from the crazy crowds of the pandemic.
It has not been good in a way as I developed anxiety about people. If you are invited into my home for an appointment then I am fine.
If I have to go out of my front door and away from my house I am a complete mess inside. I still wear a mask for the whole time I’m out and never take it off. I also wear glasses with just glass to protect my eyes.
Call me O.T.T but I have to. It may have got a lot deeper than that and I will admit I am afraid of dying and leaving my kitties behind ( I have to stop listening to the media as it’s mainly their fault pandemic anxiety is amongst us). If I didn’t have them then I don’t think I would be like this.
Now you have seen the soft side to mistress Lucy. Yes, I do have a soft side as well as being a hard-nosed bitch sometimes.
Thinking about it and I am not getting morbid on the subject but nobody wants to leave this earth before their time. Let alone to something that we can control such as the pandemic.
If only everyone was as careful as the sensible ones then we wouldn’t be in this mess we are in right now (don’t get me on my soapbox about public mass gatherings and football matches etc). That’s a whole different subject to talk about.
Well on that note I will say bye for now and plod on with the rest of my website. I will keep you updated. Don’t worry if I’m not on social media too much but I will be when I can.
Stay safe and healthy and talk soon…
Friday 27th March 2020
Blog NO.113.
We are all different in our own special way and no one is out together wrong.
When it comes to what un-nerves us and rocks our world in a bad way is a different matter.
Anxiety has so many different ways it can affect us.
I used to have terrible anxiety attacks before I would fly. The only thing that would get me through it was because I would look forward to the destination.
It would mostly be hot beachy places so it would calm me down. Over time I would teach myself how to go through the different stags before a holiday as it would always start 4 weeks before hand.
I have not had a holiday for 6 or more years now so have been anxiety free in that whole time.
Since the beginning of March when this whole CV19 virus started to build up I have had these attacks some back.
They have not been as worse as the flight ones but even so they have come back with a vengeance.
Its the not knowing that stresses us out. As I mention in my video message on onlyfans that this is something we only have seen in films (eg:Contagion 2011) .
Its strange how when Scott Z Burns an American screen writer wrote this back in 2011 or before got a lot of the facts exactly right to what is happening today.
I will not be watching the full length film of it as I watched a trailer of it and it was scary enough for me.
I say scary because it is very much reality now but back then when people watched it with interest it was fiction.
Every film has an ending and I don’t want to know how this is going to end until it does…